La Musique

Sunday, November 30, 2008

hurt.. haiz. esp when they're your closest people.

=(

i want to continue violin lessons but they dun let me. dun wan me to learn now. wan me to learn three years later. i ask why not now? they dun noe what to reply. what's the difference between i learn now and i learn three years later. i'll probably be more busy then right? with new job and all. why not learn now?!?!!

den they said this which really hurt my feelings. what's the point? so what if you master the skill? then what?

can't a man dream? i wan to play violin on stage and that's my dream. i wanna master my violin skills so that others can hear and benefit. i wanna be able to teach violin to others so that they can achieve their dreams too.

i have a hope so sure. an anchor for my soul. Jesus i trust You. i trust that You will make a way. i trust You... i have faith and i believe in You, that You know what's best for me and You'll let it happen. perhaps its not the time for me, but do let me know, so i won't be so frustrated, so angry. i'll wait, if you say so.

love, victor.

Worse is i'm sick now. down with a flu. hope i can go work tmr still. i love my job. i see it as serving my boss, not really as a job, and i do it with joy. can't wait to serve them again tmr =D

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