La Musique

Monday, December 1, 2008

i feel so much better now. really have got to thank God =)

this morning talked about that same issue again. at about 5 30 in the morning talk until 6, den i had to leave for work. left the house with tears in my heart. prayed to God, sang worship, and was touched. den i realise. i can't change my circumstances, i can only change what i do. so i decided to practise now until i reached the previous std, and den go for classes. by then i shld be able to afford my own classes. i hope. i message them my plan but they didn't reply. but i'm going to do that in the end. actually my mum volunteered to give me money, but they retiring soon so i've got no heart to receive from them. so i'm gonna work hard and achieve my dream. really thank God for the turning point this morning.

another thing to thank God for. i manage to follow my budget for this month. haha i know. only one day. but its an achievement. i'm believing for a turning point in my finances. haha look how detailed my budgeting is, that i planned how much i'm going to spend on what for every single individual day of this month. and patience, discipline will take me through.

really, i was going through valleys in terms of my finances. cuz i felt really hopeless and desperate to get out of debt. really going through the valley. felt like it was never going to end. and on top of that, the violin thing. then last nite and this morning, God poured His love onto me. felt that everything was going to be all right. and that what made me see. whoa, indeed God is good to me =D that He comforts me in my darkest times. and cuz of that, i had these ideas. 1. to plan my budget in the day of the month rather than a month overview thing. and 2. the violin thing. indeed, insanity is doing the same thing and hoping for a different result. you wan different result, you've got to do different thing. and this is what i'm doing. details determine destiny. i'm going in for the details. =D Thank God for comforting me, at the right time, in the right way. =D

Psalms 23:4
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

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