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Sunday, June 7, 2009

Winter to Spring

heys..

i'm back from my internet fast..

hahaha. was good. went out a lot though. but its about time to break the habit of switching on the com.

some of us are addicted to internet that we don't know it. but its only when we try to stay away from it and it becomes a struggle then we know how much grip it has on us..

been going out quite often these few days.. been starting the day right and all. i don't wish to elaborate here, cuz its really a lot of things that went on..

choir pract, NS briefing, out with vann and SOT friends, gosh i forgot what i did on friday! haha.. den ytd, went for service and late supper! hahaha. good talk with zoe. =D

today went church serve, went to eat with YK zone people for their YK zone outreach. haha. den finally came home. and here it is, the summary of what i've done..

i'm more interested to write what's really happening in my life den just the events. recently, i've been experiencing winter (for those who went for SOS, they know what i'm talking about). and i know its not the worst i'll will be experiencing, but its the worst i've experienced so far. everything around seems to be falling into pieces.

that's the case, i guess, that when you tell God you wanna be more like Him, He'll first break you up, den fix you back into His image.. seems like i was very wrong in my image of myself in walking with Him, that's why everything's all breaking up.

but it only means that, i'm becoming tender, and open to His presence.. and the only comfort i get is when i am at home, door shut, in my own secret place praying. i feel God's peace assuring me that everything's all right.

den the next day, it happens again. i will just keep running back to God and let Him deal with me. its tiring, to wake up with heavy feet and a loaded mind, but His presence is always there for me, whenever i run to Him.

and indeed, i believe now is the time for me to arise from my brokenness. my winter has ended. its time for me to step out again! =D i've got to focus on the calling that God has for my life =D focus on building myself up and building up my walk with God, above everything else! =) its going to be a new and interesting adventure from this day forth.

indeed, God is really my rod and staff when i walk through valleys. there is no other place for me to run to, He is my santuary, my hiding place. =)

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